Believe it or not, in the past couple of weeks, attempting to follow my own advice and being mindful has been tough.
Due to postal woes and a christmas break where the black dog sat tight on my chest, I didn’t get to a deadline as early as I wanted. I had to knit an entire garment in less than a week. And it was cotton.
Woe is me.
I dislike working with cotton, it’s tough, my hands get dry and it just doesn’t FLY like other yarns do. But I took my solace where I could find it. The colour. Everyone can tell you you can’t get vivid shades as pop-py and childish as cotton gets. I had to plough through the job and I did, thinking of the strawberry-like shade of the yarn and how pretty it would look when done.
Which is why the days following the end of that deadline have been spent with paperwork, blogging about what makes a pattern good, how a tech editor works, things that don’t make my hands hurt, and reflection.
You know what? I make a truckload of pretty.
2 of my samples are going off with Anzula for TNNA & Stitches, and as Unravel is coming up I decided to take some quality printouts of the samples in question so you all can admire them even if they’re not there…
And I realised my walls are naked. Since we painted the studio I’ve been reluctant to place anything on the walls because… mostly because I told myself lies:
- I like white (which I do but there’s only so much white you can take)
- I don’t like myself in photos (which I don’t, but I’ve learnt to be better with my self-criticism of my image)
- What do I have that is good enough to show off? (errr…. really?)
They are lies.
I have a COVER.
I have a quirky, if sometimes unappreciated-by-myself beauty.
I have successes to look at and think… Holy crap I create some pretty stuff.
So, en route to Mindful Town, I’m celebrating. I’m putting images on my walls that remind me of my journey and my achievements, and hope they will guide me to a future of many, many more of them.
How do you remind yourself of your journey so far?
What inspires you to continue?